Imagine your partner in life going back on his or her word on something that is very close to your heart and soul, something that guides your life compass, your morals, what you stand for, what you believe in. How do you manage that? It hurts so much. So much, so deep, so persistently. Like a cancer that doesn't want to go away. No matter how much I tried, the pain continues to show up every few days, and each time it hurts more. How much more can a person take this before insanity happens. It's easy to say "don't give up, continue to grind, continue to work it out". How is that possible when you are alone against opposing forces that want to pull you in totally opposite directions? You have to pick one side or you don't pick any and go off a tangent. Or you just split into pieces and no longer exist, becoming a different person just to continue breathing. Like a zombie. In your head...in your head...zombie...zombie.