uncle lim kopi

 Having constant “pain” from recurring issues But suddenly a new issue propped up, with pain like a jolt of lightning. It makes all existing issues and concerns seem like chicken feet.  It over took all other “priorities” At this point, it really woke me up. That nothing else matters if this new issue isn’t looked at right away Locked in and go. And nothing else matters 

 Not sure if it’s due to age or constant worry Why worry Worry about what’s going to happen to me when the move happens  Whether I can live with it if I feel guilty as it’s against my wishes But at same time, I also want to have freedom and less overheads dealing with things at home I must think through this. It’s all in my head and it’s really up to me how to deal with it, no one can tell me how Of course I want to be happy. I guess that’s key. I have my duties as son and husband and father. But my ow happiness should come first as long as my commitments are done. I can’t make everyone happy. But I can take of them decently and that’s should be enough. There’s no right or wrong. It’s my own yardstick  Hope this tides over.  Meanwhile, definitely must take care of my body and mind.  Don’t worry about work again. I don’t think I want to go back to work at least for now until things are settled. Only if money issue then I’ll get back to work lol

 That feeling comes and go. Anger, resentment, questions, regrets, confusion.  Guess it will take a long time, maybe forever  But it’s okay.  It could’ve been worse 

 Have you ever sat next to someone who munches away without closing their fucking trap? I do and I myself used to do it. I must make a conscious effort to not do this myself. Because it’s damn irritating to others. And it’s disgusting and it’s rude.  I will also teach my kids about this so they don’t grow up to be such ill mannered people, and worst, not aware of it being ill mannered in the first place. Peace and close it 

Fear Of Missing Out Joy Of Missing Out Read this from a book.  JOMO is cool! We always stress ourselves out due to FOMO. Must do this, must go there, must eat this etc etc But we have finite time and energy and resources. And usually we can only focus on one thing at a time to fully immerse and enjoy it.  So for sure when we decided to do something with our time, an almost unlimited qty of things we will give up or postpone. So we FOMO ourselves to death. JOMO is better. We take joy that we will miss out certain things in life, because it’s inevitable or it’s our own choice! And we take joy because we are grateful to be alive to be even able to make choices on how to use our life time.