Tiredness

 Not sure if it’s due to age or constant worry

Why worry

Worry about what’s going to happen to me when the move happens 

Whether I can live with it if I feel guilty as it’s against my wishes

But at same time, I also want to have freedom and less overheads dealing with things at home

I must think through this. It’s all in my head and it’s really up to me how to deal with it, no one can tell me how

Of course I want to be happy. I guess that’s key. I have my duties as son and husband and father. But my ow happiness should come first as long as my commitments are done. I can’t make everyone happy. But I can take of them decently and that’s should be enough. There’s no right or wrong. It’s my own yardstick 

Hope this tides over. 

Meanwhile, definitely must take care of my body and mind. 

Don’t worry about work again. I don’t think I want to go back to work at least for now until things are settled. Only if money issue then I’ll get back to work lol